I sometimes go on YouTube to fine out how-to fix things. While doing that I came across some interesting videos. A couple were on Aspergers syndrome and Autism, they kind of hit home. One of them described my life’s journey to a tee. One of the main ideas was that I do avoid people and much as I can but I do that not that I want to but that most avoid me so that is the reason I avoid them. He made the example of going into a crowded room and you walk up to a group and right away they avoid me and try to get away from me as fast as they can; almost like they sense there is something wrong with guy that I don’t want anything to do with him and this is before I say or do anything.
After experiencing something like that a few times and not having a clue what you have done, if anything, it gets to be a little uncomfortable and you get the feeling that I don’t want to feel that pain any longer and that is when the avoidance reaction starts to take hold into any other situation like that and they keep building on themselves into real problem. I knew for many years I was avoiding so many things in my life but not putting 2 and 2 together, just going through life excepting the situation the way it was and suffering. I wasn’t sure what was happening in my world with no way to improve because I wasn’t sure what I was doing to get this reaction from people. I was getting this reaction from multiple people in multiple situations but I didn’t know how to change that reaction from taking place.
Out of the Cave 